Mandala

I just found out that my father died last month. I guess to me he died in 1982, so it's not really a big loss now. When I first saw his obituary I felt a strange sense of relief which has since become curiosity. Indifference soon to come.

The Giver

I'm a giver. I have recently come to realize that not only do I enjoy doing things for others, but I NEED it. I don't really understand what it means or why I am that way, but I'll go with it. I wonder if other people have feelings like that. It seems like people just go around serving themselves, but I wonder how that affects them at night when they're lying in bed trying to sleep. Maybe it doesn't.

I had a dream a few nights ago that I had a big freckle right in the middle of my face. I looked it up in a dream dictionary which gave this definition: To dream that you have freckles on your face, represents your distinct and unique character. You will stand out in crowd. 
Maybe I'm the last giver out there...